Majito’s Weblog

Life is composed of changes and different situations. When I was on 6^th grade my life changed, as my friends says “6^th graders does not know who they really are”, I went through many changes and decisions that were not easy to take at that moment of my life. I had a group of friend that were the best, but then I started growing, internally, so my friends seemed to be younger than I was, so I needed as a friend somebody who had mostly the same characteristics I had. I started getting together with another group of friends, they were incredible, and at that moment they were in the same emotional situation. At that time of everybody’s life, you don’t know if you are a kid or you are an adolescent, so everything is confusing and difficult. Even though it seems to be a total disaster, it is a year that will be present in my memories forever, because it was a great year even though a lot of problems happened. That year, also is the one that taught me a good lesson about life and what is right or wrong. That year I met a person who became my boyfriend at the middle of it. He was the one who taught me that life isn’t a party, life is something that has situations that you have to decide and to decide you have to be prepared, also that life has to be organized and that you always have to do the things in the right way.

Life changes but that situation made the biggest change in my life. I remember the day of the graduation, of course I did not go, but I remember that at eight o’clock at night I was taking a shower and I was thinking and crying. I was so sad thinking that all my classmates were at the graduation celebrating, and that I was the only was who missed it. I cried for days and one day between the tears I started writing in a paper, were I expressed all my thoughts and feelings, and in the middle of that dramatic situation I realized and made me a promise about something “my grades were going to better the next year and the rest of my life”. That promise is the one that made my life changed. Next year I looked back and realized that the friends I left at the beginning of 6th grade were the ones who were called “true friends”, so I went back with them and told them that I was sorry. My relationship with my boyfriend was greater than ever. My life was changing again but as people say “after the rain the calm arrives”, things were going in the right path. What I think about that boyfriend and girlfriend relationship, is that it came in the right moment, in the one that everything changed and that I needed a guide to follow the right way. I think that the advices I received from my boyfriend that year worth more any other thing. I followed my promise and that’s the reason why I always try to get good grades. My grades are so important and now are my first priority, and as people say “from a bad situation you have to get the positive message it has”, my bad grades let me understand that I have to get good grades. I was the worst student of my class and now my goal is to be one of the best, as my purpose of this year is to try to get the graduation speech.

I do not have too much time to read, but I always try to read every night before I go to sleep. I always read romantic novels, things that seem to be real; things that make me express my feelings. I do like to read because it makes me go into the world of my imagination and my feelings. I like to read, but in silent and in that situation I think that I’m a good reader because I understand what read, but when I read out loud, I’m not a good reader, because I don’t have the security to read in front of others and I don’t understand what I’m reading because I can’t concentrate on what it says because I’m nervous. I love to read at home, as I said, romantic novels and anything that makes me express my feelings. My favorite book is “A walk to remember” it is a book that made me cry and felt every situation.

 I don’t write too often, but when I read I always try to express my feelings and make up little poems. I like to write because it is a way to express feelings and understand myself just by reading it again. I think I’m a good writer because I know how to express what I want to say, but I’m a good writer when I make an effort to do it. I write outside of school at home, every time I feel inspired or when I want to explode because of many ideas I have in my mind. Of the things I have written, my favorite is a love poem which is called “€œnuestra vida con amor” which is an expression of the feelings I have for my boyfriend, but it is something that makes you think about beautiful things and go into another world. Reading and writing is the way everybody express themselves and in that way other persons can understand us. 

I just want to tell you that all the damage I made was because of a good reason. I’m Grendel and I’m an unrecognized monster and that’s because many changes that I made on me. My family used to live in the hall, what now is called Herot, and we were truly happy and we loved to help people other counties. My family died in many battles that they had when Hrothgar and his warriors invaded my family and friends hall. Now, my mom and I were the only survivors of many battles in the past. Hrothgar and his army invaded our hall, so now we attack them because we want it back. Don’t think that we are in revenge. In the past we tried to talk to Hrothgar but he never wanted to hear us so now we are demonstrating what we want. Now that I’m the one who has to protect my mother, I carry all the humans I get and give them to my mother so she can eat. I always attack at night because we are like bats, we can see only at night. When Herot was empty for about 12 years, before that, my family was killed and my mother and me hided in our island and transform it, so that is why it looks like hell, so no one will want to invade it. I really understand that Hrothgar want to protect his community but he doesn’t understand others. Now that I’m dying, I’m glad to die because I was trying to rescue our county. Once my mother also tried to talk to Hrothgar to tell him that we didn’t cared about sharing the same county, but the only thing we received was another battle. Now that I die, my mother will be alone and at the end I know that Hrothgar will have Herot forever, but I don’t care. I only wish him good luck and protection from God forever.

Everything in my life has to have a purpose and with a positive point of view. I think that my heart is divided in 4 main groups: my family, my friends, my love, and my own satisfaction. Each part of my heart represents the feelings I have toward each group. At this time of my life, I think that every part of my heart is in a positive way, so I’m happy about it. My life has a purpose, to study, and then go to the university. I want to study and then to have the opportunity to help people and their life problems, so they can be happy with themselves. In every situation, I think that feelings go first, but feelings have to be mixed up with our minds, so we can do the right things. One of the things that I love to do is to take pictures of trees, nature, forests and other natural places. These types of pictures give me peace and make me think that nature is beautiful for our senses and for our soul, so we can live in the peace that nature represents.